Current mood:
annoyed ..plus size...my least favorite words these days. that and anything followed by an X or the word "woman's size" on it. oh yeah. the dreaded fat chick clothes and the lack of anything remotely stylish on store shelves. it is the quest of all round ladies like myself. something cute in a big size. practically impossible!!!
as i've written in the past, i was a thin girl...operative word being was. in fact i was generally too thin as a teen and young adult. i didn't go over the 98lb. mark until i was 18. i'm practically 5ft. 5in. tall so you do the math. i was a twig and not in a good way! don't get me wrong. it wasn't because of thin genes and it wasn't for lack of trying to be thin. i hated my body, still do, and i was accutely aware of my body image issues at a very young age. but up until the time i hit 25, i was thin.
but those days are long gone and now i find myself having to shop for clothes that are made for woman who are beyond the misses sizes. and let me tell you something. i'm no fashionista but some of the shit they try to pawn off to larger women is horrendous. it's a slap in the face. as if to say that because a woman is larger than an XL that she should be forced to wear baggy shirts, elastic waist pants and "comfortable shoes". does the ensemble come with a matching walker and fanny pack too?
i'm a 37 year old woman who has more cushin for the pushin (always thought that was a funny phrase) but i am anything but frumpy. fat, for the time being, yes. frumpy, no fucking way! i have a kick ass set of tits that put most women to shame. it's both a blessing because men love them and a curse because i fucking hate them. i even went so far as having a breast reduction at the age of 23 and trust me, it was needed. now that i'm chunky, the bitches are back and i hate them but they really are kick ass. anywhoo, i have an ass, i have a waist...somewhere under this chunk...and i am a sexual being. i may not have a flat stomach but i'm not some retiree going on a trip to boca.
i want to spend my money on clothes that make me feel content, confident, pretty, sexy and just downright "normal". why is it that in our society if you are anything bigger than an XL that you are forced to shop a slim, unattractive selection of garments? and why do i have to go to a store that only sells "plus" sizes? as if it's some kind of disease so it's best not to mix them with the other sizes? seriously. and i wonder why women who are heavy are less social, less confident, less accepted. clothiers make us look and feel like we are less important than a mainstream size 10.
well guess what? i'm not a mainstream size 10. i'm a mainstream plus size. yes, i'm fat. yes, i need to do something about it. yes, i'm working on losing it and want desperately to get back to a healthy body weight. notice i didn't say skinny because frankly, i just want to get healthy. but right now i am overweight. and right now i need some new clothes that don't make me look like i'm going to live in a nursing home. i want to buy something a step up from clamdiggers and frumpy dresses. so give me something with a little kick. a little shape. and a whole lot of sex appeal.
because whether i am a chunky monkey or skinny minnie, i am nobody's wallflower and i deserve to look good!
as i've written in the past, i was a thin girl...operative word being was. in fact i was generally too thin as a teen and young adult. i didn't go over the 98lb. mark until i was 18. i'm practically 5ft. 5in. tall so you do the math. i was a twig and not in a good way! don't get me wrong. it wasn't because of thin genes and it wasn't for lack of trying to be thin. i hated my body, still do, and i was accutely aware of my body image issues at a very young age. but up until the time i hit 25, i was thin.
but those days are long gone and now i find myself having to shop for clothes that are made for woman who are beyond the misses sizes. and let me tell you something. i'm no fashionista but some of the shit they try to pawn off to larger women is horrendous. it's a slap in the face. as if to say that because a woman is larger than an XL that she should be forced to wear baggy shirts, elastic waist pants and "comfortable shoes". does the ensemble come with a matching walker and fanny pack too?
i'm a 37 year old woman who has more cushin for the pushin (always thought that was a funny phrase) but i am anything but frumpy. fat, for the time being, yes. frumpy, no fucking way! i have a kick ass set of tits that put most women to shame. it's both a blessing because men love them and a curse because i fucking hate them. i even went so far as having a breast reduction at the age of 23 and trust me, it was needed. now that i'm chunky, the bitches are back and i hate them but they really are kick ass. anywhoo, i have an ass, i have a waist...somewhere under this chunk...and i am a sexual being. i may not have a flat stomach but i'm not some retiree going on a trip to boca.
i want to spend my money on clothes that make me feel content, confident, pretty, sexy and just downright "normal". why is it that in our society if you are anything bigger than an XL that you are forced to shop a slim, unattractive selection of garments? and why do i have to go to a store that only sells "plus" sizes? as if it's some kind of disease so it's best not to mix them with the other sizes? seriously. and i wonder why women who are heavy are less social, less confident, less accepted. clothiers make us look and feel like we are less important than a mainstream size 10.
well guess what? i'm not a mainstream size 10. i'm a mainstream plus size. yes, i'm fat. yes, i need to do something about it. yes, i'm working on losing it and want desperately to get back to a healthy body weight. notice i didn't say skinny because frankly, i just want to get healthy. but right now i am overweight. and right now i need some new clothes that don't make me look like i'm going to live in a nursing home. i want to buy something a step up from clamdiggers and frumpy dresses. so give me something with a little kick. a little shape. and a whole lot of sex appeal.
because whether i am a chunky monkey or skinny minnie, i am nobody's wallflower and i deserve to look good!
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